my apologies.

[Kintaro]

sorry

it has to be

[Laukev7]

I beg your pardon?

[Lord C]

Please read http://kintaro.noobify.com/drupal/?q=node/75

Shit man.

Does anyone have any contact details of John's?
Phone numbers? Postal address?

Please email/PM/IM me A.S.A.P

Here is our AIM log of tonight

(00:15:35) Kintaron00d: ever goto my website?
(00:15:35) Kintaron00d logged in.
(00:15:46) Kintaron00d: just curious
(00:15:46) linuxlordc: occasionally
(00:15:50) Kintaron00d: i dont thing anyone does
(00:17:00) Kintaron00d: bye man
(00:17:33) linuxlordc: cu


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(00:23:41) Kintaron00d: http://kintaro.noobify.com/drupal/?q=node/75
(00:23:48) Kintaron00d: sorry
(00:23:50) Kintaron00d: it has to be
(00:23:53) Kintaron00d logged out.
(00:26:42) Kintaron00d logged in.
(00:30:40) linuxlordc: Final !
(00:31:04) Kintaron00d: sorry                                             
(00:31:08) linuxlordc:  I have 60 tablets reported to cause all kinds of fucked up things, if they dont kill me im fucking god.
(00:31:13) linuxlordc: are you serious?
(00:31:30) Kintaron00d: i so far have ejected 30 of them onto my table
(00:31:33) Kintaron00d: antipsychotics
(00:31:36) Kintaron00d: im sorry
(00:31:43) linuxlordc: dont do it
(00:31:55) linuxlordc: Please John
(00:32:05) Kintaron00d: its getting hard to take them out of the packets
(00:32:12) Kintaron00d: its getting hard to do anything
(00:32:16) Kintaron00d: because i shake all the time
(00:32:31) Kintaron00d: sorryu
(00:32:34) linuxlordc: John think about what you're doing
(00:32:34) Kintaron00d logged out.
(00:32:37) linuxlordc: there is no going back
(00:32:38) Unable to send message: Not logged in

[Kintaro]

i thought about it.

i dont want to go back, ive considered everything my cognition engenders.

daniel farmilo is at school, he is the only one who can help me, and my fathers at work. its 9:51 here and its work time for everyone. nobody can help me and it has meticulously planned over a long peroid of time.

this is not a sudden thing, its not a mood swing i dont even have a mood at the moment.

i keep breaking down into tears because i know how this hurt everyone when ed did it and how it hurt me but that doesnt matter at all because im sorry and that doesnt mean anything but im so fucked up and when you see all the stupid habits on my computer you will realise this was better and that nothing matters to me because i am the faceless scum of the earth i will hurt someone if i dont do this and ill hurt more people if i dont but the way i could hurt people could send them into what i did and this is a sacrafice for what is morally right

[Kintaro]

this is to calum...

your awesome. coolest bloke on the entire earth.

[Kintaro]

the music sets the scene so well a perfect cirlcle and certain death the emotion connects to me and tellsn me wht ni haven to do and i cant even see fuck bye

[Lord C]

I so hope this one of of the 'stories' you wrote about in your blog.

Please just come on AIM.

[Laukev7]

Kintaro's phone number:

+61 431 348 815

John, please reconsider your decision.

[Lord C]

I managed to get John's address.
He took the tablets as I reminded him of Sarah -
He then regretted taking the tablets.
I lost contact with John.

I called Australian Police -
They kept me on the line for 12 minutes (redirected me 3times, which didnt take long, but then I had about 10minutes of questions from the Police).
They have sent the Police and an Ambulance to John's address.

I must go to bed and try to sleep now.
I hope all is well, John will get his stomach pumped and be fine.
See you all tomorrow

Lord Calvin

[Lord C]

I just called John's house phone (at an extortionate rate) and someone answered.

They sounded out of their head. Slurred words etc.
I kept repeating myself but I don't think they could hear/understand.

As they hung up I heard someone in the background, I could sware they said "John, Phone!".
Im not sure.

I know I heard something in the background about "call for help".

So I am hoping John is getting all the help he needs from his father or something, and that the drugs thing was just a scare.

[Laukev7]

You beat me to it. Anyway, I'm glad he's been taken care of.

Thanks, Lord C, you saved the day.

[Laukev7]

I don't feel proud though, because as much as I wanted to call, I was paralysed by my apprehension of my parents' reaction if I called in Australia and made them foot the phone bill. If I were alone, I would have gladly paid myself.

[Aloone_Jonez]

I've been worried that this might happen, because I haven't seen John here for a while. I'm begining to regret not saying anything.

[Orethrius]

John, as I said just a bit ago, the meaning of life is.

You can't find the solution to the problem if you terminate it prematurely, you should know this from basic math / science.

If you want to know the answer, you'll live it out and seek it, rather than end it and lose it.  Don't gamble on a snake eyes with the question of life.  This, too, shall pass.

I really wish I knew what else to say, but I'm at a loss.  

[Refalm]

I got his voice mail.